This past year we have had so many peak moments. I'd love to say they were all dandy, but to tell the truth it was just a hard year mostly. Our family went through some serious dips in the road.
One of the hardest peaks this year was our hospital stay.
She hadn't been so sick in such a long time. We've had a record number of ER trips this past year but we always got to go home. This time was brutal. From the DNR form to just watching her struggle to breathe and live. Putting on a brave front for Marvin.
We went home with more medical equipment and a grim reminder of how medically fragile she really is.
The other peak has been Marvin's health. He's been having more pain and we've been trying to fix him. He had hernia surgery and needs to make a lot of dietary changes that haven't gone over well with him. It's also been challenging to explain and have others understand that he has needs too.
Then I've been trying to take care of me too. I've had health stuff and it's hard to take care of me when the kids need so much care. I'm kind of toast.
This past year was hard and the moments have probably given me more ptsd than joy. But we are working on moving forward in courage. Both kids are fighters and I can't lay down in my fear and grief. Here's to hope that 2019 is a better year for peak moments all around!
Oh, Amy . . . I'm so sorry things have been so difficult this last year, but will stand in agreement with you in prayer that 2019 will be better! I know that our God is on the throne and in control! AND, that you are His beloved! You are surely fulfilling His purpose, and He will help see you through! Love and Hugs and Blessings!
ReplyDeleteMy heart feels for you and its difficult to understand why little ones get sick. The hardest part for the parents is to feel so helpless, yet the child themselves, seem to take it all in their stride.
ReplyDelete"Lord I pray for this family, wrap them in your arms of love, let them always know that you are close, no matter what they think or feel. Please surround their home with waring angels to protect them from the evil one. I also pray for your blood covering over the whole house. In Jesus name Amen."